Sayang, Dunia Bukan Syurga.

 Untuk remaja belasan tahun yang meratap bagai nak gila di laman sosial akibat putus cinta, untuk adik-adik yang baru hendak belajar mengenal cinta (baik kenal dulu alif,ba,ta), untuk mereka yang merasakan hendak lompat dari tingkat tertinggi bangunan KLCC 5 minit lagi akibat tekanan kerja dan keluarga, kau tidak bersendirian, sayang.

Sayang, ketahuilah dunia ini bukan syurga yang menjanjikan bahagia semata. Sekolah akan mengajar kita dahulu kemudian baru kita akan diberi ujian. Tetapi kehidupan akan memberi kita ujian dahulu, dan kemudian baru kita akan diberi pelajaran.

 Bila kau rasa nak mati akibat stress melampau atau dosa terlalu banyak, ingatlah, You are not the sinner of the Universe. Orang lain pun melakukan kesilapan dan dosa juga. Dan tiada siapa yang boleh meletakkan kau di tempat kau sekarang melainkan diri kau sendiri. Jadi jika kau berasa teruk, maka kau sendiri yang memilih untuk merasa teruk.

Percayalah, kau tidak pernah merasai apa itu 'neraka dunia' dalam erti kata yang sebenar.

Dan kalau kau masih berhasrat untuk membunuh diri atau memasuki institut pemulihan mental, percayalah aku tidak akan menghalang, malah akan membantu kau. Aku memang baik hati orangnya, tahu?

Tidak semua bernasib serupa.

May Peace Be Upon Us.

Live,Laugh,Die Emotionally!

Manusia...Begitulah.

 

Bila kau bercakap pasal lampu Krismas saja, ramai orang yang datang menerpa menaburkan bermacam-macam nasihat, kiasan, makian, sindiran dan fatwa-fatwa entah dari mana.

Tetapi bila kau hilang cahaya, sendiri dalam gelap, tiada siapa pula yang peduli atau sudi meminjamkan waima sebatang lilin. Manusia...begitulah.

Bila kau mampu membuatkan orang di sekeliling kau gembira, mereka akan berkumpul bersama kau untuk ketawa sekali.

Tetapi bila kau ditimpa celaka dan menangis, maka kau akan mendapati kau menangis seorang diri. Manusia...begitulah.

Bila kau berdiri di tangga paling tinggi, semua orang berebut-rebut dan merayu supaya kau membawa mereka ke atas sedikit biarpun cuma satu anak tangga.

Tetapi bila kau tersungkur menyembah bumi, mereka semua yang sudah berdiri di atas tadi hanya melihat kau tanpa simpati. Manusia...begitulah.

Bila kau dimahukan seorang lelaki, dia akan menaburkan seribu satu janji dan bersumpah setia sampai hujung nyawa.

Tetapi bila kau sudah tidak dimahukan lagi, dia akan berlari meninggalkan kau tanpa pamitan pun seperti dikejar anjing gila. Manusia...begitulah.

Bila kau dikurniakan sedikit kebaikan, semua berlumba-lumba menadah tangan.

Tetapi bila kau dikurniakan sedikit keburukan, semua berlumba-lumba memberi makian. Manusia...begitulah.

Bila kau hodoh macam zombi, tiada siapa sudi memandang.

Tetapi bila kau dah cantik macam bidadari, semua tidak putus-putus datang. Manusia...begitulah.

Dan kerana manusia begitu, maka aku sudah tidak mahu ambil kisah apa yang berlaku. Cuma satu aku nak cakap, “From now on here, if you want to walk out of my life, just fucking get lost. Frankly, I don’t give a fuck anymore.”

May Peace Be Upon Us.

 

Live,Laugh,Die Emotionally!

Happy Is A Taboo Word.

 Happy is a taboo word for me.

I won't say it twice because if I did so, then HAPPY will turn into AGONY. It's always has been so.

May Peace Be Upon Us.

Live,Laugh,Die Emotionally!

Turn Back The Pendulum.

 Jika perempuan itu bisa memutar kembali pendulum masa ke waktu di mana dia belum ketemu kamu.

Biarpun dia sudah mengerti,sebenar-benarnya mengerti akan kesakitan yang terpaksa dilalui seandainya dia memilih untuk bersama kamu,

dia pasti tidak teragak-agak untuk melakukannya sekali lagi.

Kerna merahnya darah yang berbekas dari kesan dia memijak kaca-kaca luka bukan beerti semuanya datang dari kesakitan yang dirasa.

 Sebahagiannya dari setia yang nyata
manakala sebahagian lagi dari cinta yang sentiasa membara.

Kerna percaya, perempuan itu tidak akan berbelah bagi untuk memberi masanya yang berharga demi bahagia yang sementara.

May Peace Be Upon Us.

Live,Laugh,Die Emotionally!

Kalau-Kalau Ada Yang Berbaki.

 Ketika sedang menguis-nguis tanah mencari kalau-kalau ada habuan untukku yang masih berbaki,dari ekor mata aku terlihat kelibat bayang di sisi.Habuan yang dicari bukanlah makanan sepertimana ayam mengais tanah mahupun emas sepertimana manusia tamak menceroboh lombong.

 Sekilas aku pandang perempuan di sebelah.Tidak perlu merenung lama,aku sudah pasti akan gerangan si pemilik tubuh.

 "Apa yang kau cari?"soalnya sekadar memerhatikanku dengan pandangan tenang.Anak mata coklatnya menyapa wajahku.

 "Tidak banyak yang aku cari,sekadar cebisan-cebisan kasih.Kalau bernasib baik,mungkin ada yang ditinggalkan untuk kita."Aku menjawab tanpa memandangnya.Bukan kerana benci sebaliknya aku tidak punya masa untuk itu.Aku perlu cepat sebelum cebisan-cebisan itu pergi diterbangkan angin.Jari jemariku yang kotor terus ligat mengais-ngais tanah dan debu.

"Biar aku tolong,"dia menawarkan bantuan.

"Tidak mengapakah nanti kalau kuku-kuku kau yang cantik itu dipenuhi debu hitam seperti ini?"Aku menunjukkan kedua belah tanganku kepadanya.Dia mengangguk sambil tersenyum.

 Ketika cahaya bulan menyoroti lantai bumi,kelihatan dua orang perempuan yang masih sibuk dengan kerja mereka;menguis-nguis tanah dengan tekun.

"Perempuan GILA!"dengus orang yang lalu lalang.Mereka yang hanya melihat dengan mata tetapi buta hati dan akalnya.

May Peace Be Upon Us. 

Live,Laugh,Die Emotionally!

Because She Loves You So.

Kerana dia cinta
maka dia mula percaya
ketam mula berjalan lurus
dan serigala itu teman paling setia.

Kerana dia setia
maka dia mula percaya
merindui bulan itu tidak sia sia
sang pungguk tidak akan kecewa.

Kerana dia telah buta
maka dia mula percaya
dalam gelita ada cahaya
di hujung sana dia akan bertemu bahagia.

Kerana dia cinta
maka dia mula percaya
Tidak mungkin dia terluka
walau sebelah kaki
sudah menginjak neraka.

May Peace Be Upon Us.

Live,Laugh,Die Emotionally!

Song Of The Black Nightingale.

 One night,when a nightmare woke me up,I heard a soft sound coming from my window.It was a beautiful sound.I was afraid and amazed at the same time.Who or what was it?After a while,my ears began to recognize that it was a bird.There was a bird outside my window and it was humming a beautiful but melancolic song.It must be a nightingale.I hurried to the window pane to catch a glimpse of it but I could find no nightingale.There was only a black crow on the branch.Feeling a bit dissapointed,I was about to get back to bed when the sound started again.

I desperately tried to search for the owner of that song but I could find not a single soul except the ugly crow.To my astonishment,that sound actually came from him.I opened the window to let him in.Just like he can read my thoughts,he rushly flew in.I offered him my hand and he consently sat on it.We stared at each other for a while before he began to sing again.While he's singing,I'm still pondering.


 "It was actually you.I really thought it's a nightingale because I never know that an ugly creature like you can actually sing.But,it was okay.Since I cant get a nightingale,I will make you my nightingale.Besides,I think that we were destined to meet.You and me."

May Peace Be Upon Us.

Live,Laugh,Die Emotionally!

Blacker Than Black.

You must have been pondering...
why there are so many dissatisfactions in my life,why was all the corner in it were engulfed in pitch dark,why didnt I find my way back if I were lost,why couldnt I put a little trust in anyone or why cant I just move on and find that blissful light of happiness.

There must have been happiness for everyone.Was not everyone suppose to have a happy ending in the end?

You must have been tired...
of all my bickering of truth,my brawling about happiness and my tussle with life.


But believe me,I've been pondering more than you and I've completely exhausted because
I've been in a tug-of-war with life for a very long time.Long enough.

May Peace Be Upon Us.

Live,Laugh,Die Emotionally!

Of Becoming Forlornly Selfish.

If choosing to not letting you go even when you are not the best one for her

is selfish,

then she is hopelessly selfish.


If deciding to hold onto you tightly even after you lied and cheated on her

is selfish,

then she must be despicably selfish.


If loving you so much until she cannot lost you even after all the pain that you have made her went through

is selfish,

then she is sickly selfish.

May Peace Be Upon Us.

Live,Laugh,Die Emotionally!

Lin Dan And The Crocodile Dundee.

Lee Chong Wei kalah [lagi] semalam.Datuk Lee Chong Wei.

Tidak mengapalah.Beliau telah melakukan yang terbaik.

Cuma rasa sebal melihat gelagat DIVA Lin Dan.

Lalu hati yang sedikit kelabu tiba-tiba terfikir...alangkah baiknya kalau buaya dalam filem Crocodile Dundee datang menerpa lalu menggigit kaki si diva itu.

Tapi,kalau kakinya tiada sekalipun,mungkin si diva yang tidak pernah putus mengejar gelaran juara itu akan menyertai sukan Paralimpik pula lalu bergelar juara.Tidak mustahil.

Mungkin buaya itu patut mengigit tangannya.Ya,tangannya.




*Dan...oh ya,menyokong Lee Chong Wei itu lebih baik dari menyokong Faizal Tohir atau obses dengan Aaron Azis.

Buaya ini sangat hensem.

 Tak perlu komen jika rasa tak perlu.





May Peace Be Upon Us.

Live,Laugh,Die Emotionally!

Not Too Good,Not Too Bad.

 Yes,I'm not too good to say such things like...

"Hey I dont want to say bad things about people,or do bad things to people because we're in Ramadan month,man.Awhh...come on..!"

Or suddenly I start posting a hell bunch of religious articels just because we are in this month.

But,I'm not too bad to lie about things like that-Unlike certain people.



After all,eventhough the fact that all the devils will be chained down in hell,but after they come out when a whole month passes by,they are still devils,arent they??

May Peace Be Upon Us.

Live,Laugh,Die Emotionally!

Sabarlah,Ingatkan Tuhan.

                     "Sabarlah,ingat Tuhan."

 I used to laugh when people said that to soothe me when I'm in a havoc.

 And I still laugh when people say that to me now.

 Calmly,soothly and humbly,I asked them,

"If I didnt think of Him and am patient enough,where will I be now?
Do you think I'll still be here,writing a superfucking emotional blog?"

May Peace Be Upon Us.

 

Live,Laugh,Die Emotionally!

Homecoming Not.

I'm not afraid of leaving.

I'm just afraid of not coming back.

Because this time...

 I may not be coming back again.

 Because this time,I feel like I'm gonna go astray.

May Peace Be Upon Us.

 

Live,Laugh,Die Emotionally!

The Lucky Unlucky.

A loner may be alone,

but at least she doesnt

have anyone to lose.

May Peace Be Upon Us.

 

Live,Laugh,Die Emotionally!

Please Lie.

Next time,if I'm asking you... whether you love me or not,

PLEASE LIE.

Please lie and say YES.






*If there ever be next time.

May Peace Be Upon Us.

 

Live,Laugh,Die Emotionally!

Where Are We Now?

If I were to HATE you
and you were to HATE me,

then what would happen to us?


You promised to LOVE me eventhough you havent see me yet
and I promised to BE YOURS eventhough I didnt know you yet,

didnt we already promised each other that?

If you were to go one way
and I were to go another way,

where are we heading now?





WHERE ARE WE NOW?

May Peace Be Upon Us.

 

Live,Laugh,Die Emotionally!

I Wish That I Could Still Feel The Pain.

I wish that I (still) could HATE you.

It's not that I really want to hate you.It's just that I feel by hating you,at least,I still have some feeling preserved just for you.

By hating you,I could still feel the pain.And by feeling hurt,I know that somehow I still care.

But I couldn't even hate you now.

And for that I am very afraid.You know,I am fuckingly afraid right now.

 

 

 

May Peace Be Upon Us.

Live,Laugh,Die Emotionally!

Spider-Web.

 "Hey,look,the spider-web above your head looks so fragile and weak.It's just like it's going to break anytime."

I gazed at it.The small and white spider-web that was being caressed by rough wind danced wildly above my head.Yes,it did look like it's going to break anytime.But no matter how rough the wind violated it,the spider-web didnt break.It persistently going to stay there.

Quietly,I smiled to myself as I looked at the person beside me.I asked her in my mind, 

"The spider-web does look fragile and weak,but do you want to know what is more fragile and weaker than that?



It's the bond that we shared."







May Peace Be Upon Us.

Live,Laugh,Die Emotionally!

So,Could You Please.

Asking for you to forgive me,I wont do that.

Crying for sympathy,I'm not even qualified to do that.

Asking for your understanding,I wont do that.

Begging for you not to hate me,I cant do that.

Asking for you to love me,I cant do that too.

So,could you please...just let me go?







May Peace Be Upon Us.

Live,Laugh,Die Emotionally!

Jangan Risau Tuhan Masih Sayangkan Kau.

“Jangan risau Tuhan masih sayangkan kau.” 

Sudah berulang ulang kali ayat itu diulang.Sudah naik jelak.Sudah naik jemu dia mendengarnya.Apa yang mereka tidak tahu,dan rasanya tiada siapapun yang tahu,apa yang dia mahu dengar saat itu adalah, 

“Jangan risau,sekalipun Tuhan sudah tidak sayangkan kau,aku masih sayangkan kau.”

May Peace Be Upon Us. 

 

Live,Laugh,Die Emotionally!