Choice.

Yesterday,after forever,she came to see me.Just when I thought I wont see even her silhouettes anymore. She dragged me to a cliff.As high and tough it could be,but I never shed a sweat for I am not afraid. 

Or I ought to say that I just cant feel whatever I should be feeling any more.I told her so but she just smiled.It seems like it’s going to take forever before she actually believed what I said.She was a bit anxious as she examined me properly .Maybe I wasn’t what she thought I used to be.

“You shouldn’t suppose to be like this!” she shouted frantically at me.I say nothing.I didn’t even looked at her.But should I did,then I knew exactly what she’ll look like.A non-human look.A grotesque look.More than an ogre perhaps.

“I know.I’m sorry.”That’s all I said.

Aggravated by what I just said,she pushed me aside.To the edge.The very edge of the cliff.

“As we have come to this,this is all that’s left.”She pointed her finger straight ahead.Just by that,I understand perfectly what she’s saying.

“It’s whether you push me down,or I’m going to push you down.The consequence is just the same.In the last part of this very story, we are both going to die.So,choose!” She gave a ghostly smile to me.

“You know my choice,don’t you?”

She smiled contently. And after a long stillness,I found myself smiling too.

May Peace Be Upon Us.

 

 

Live,Laugh,Die Emotionally!

Because You Said So.

Because you said there's no need to be worry.

Because you said that everything's going to be okay.

Because you said I'm going to be happy for sure.


Because you said so
that I keep on and on holding onto hope.



All the way,I never once knew that it's...

 

 

FALSE HOPE.

LIES.

May Peace Be Upon Us. 

 

Live,Laugh,Die Emotionally!

Dont Leave.

Kali aku menjadi pemerhati.


Mereka bergaduh lagi.Entah untuk kali ke-berapa.Cuma kali ni kesalahannya bukan berpunca dari si jejaka.Selalunya pun begitu.Tapi si gadis terlalu marah untuk percaya.

Habis barang-barang dilempar ke arah jejaka.Namun jejaka tenang berdiri.

Segala sumpah seranah,caci maki dan amarah dilepaskan.Jejaka tidak membalas walau sepatah pun.

Sehabis tenaga si gadis menolak,menampar malah kakinya juga turut sama ikut bekerja.Tapi si jejaka tidak melawan.

Sudah beratus kali si gadis menghalau jejaka pergi namun dia masih tetap berdiri di situ.Masih cuba memujuk dan berdiplomasi.

Si gadis menangis sekuat hati apabila kudrat sudah hampir kosong.Jejaka setia di sisi.Dia memerhati si gadis tanpa menunjukkan riak wajah bosan.

Kemudian sebaik tangisan yang berjam lamanya itu tamat,sang jejaka bangun.Langkahnya seperti dia mahu beredar dari situ.

Si gadis yang terduduk seperti orang putus harapan sejak tadi bingkas bangun.Dia menyentuh perlahan tangan si jejaka.

"Awak pun akan tinggalkan saya?Macam mereka yang lain?"dalam suara serak akibat terlalu banyak terpekik terlolong,si gadis bertanya.

"Tak.Jangan risau saya akan tetap di sisi awak.Selama mana awak mahukan saya di situ,dan walaupun pada masa-masa awak tak mahukan saya juga."














Mimpi dan kenyataan selalunya tidak sama.

Mungkin dah tiba masanya untuk pemerhati bangun dari mimpi.

May Peace Be Upon Us.

 

Live,Laugh,Die Emotionally!

Now I Know.

 Ahhh...I see.

So that's why.That is why.



Those shameless,imbecile,fucking lovey-dovey shit photos of sickening couples.



Now I know why HE's been posting a bunch of posts like this.

This is why I hate login in to Facebook.

If this continues,then I'll surely went into hell in no time.

Sick couple people .

May Peace Be Upon Us.

 

Live,Laugh,Die Emotionally!

Of Keeping The Sane.

I used to boast how much I like to write.
I used to like it.I swear I did.
Now and after this,I'm still going to write but I dare not to say I write because I love writing anymore.
From now on,I'll say I continue to write just to keep myself sane.Somehow I'm losing it and somehow I've to keep my sanity.So somehow,I've to write.That's that.

May Peace Be Upon Us. Live,Laugh,Die Emotionally!

I'm Glad.

 I'm glad that all is well for YOU.

 So glad.
 
 ME?

Nahh...dont bother.If I'm alive then I'm alive,if not,let it be so then.

May Peace Be Upon Us. Live,Laugh,Die Emotionally!